Beyond the Trilogy of Life

I

Fearing new things
Strange feelings never felt before
Heart pounding pandemonium
Goosebumps forming rapidly
Hairs sticking up
What does this entity want from me?

Looking back
Pondering these visions I’ve had
The chaos, The self violence
And every dread in-between
As self hatred was
The needles within my mask

Looking presently into the mirror, I see scars
Scars that only I can see
And then appearing in the background
Of my imaged self
Darkness, Pure darkness, A black mass of self doubt indeed

And then the past appears behind me
Stabbing me in my back
Stabbing straight into my heart
Piercing it over and over
Twisting into it, Setting it on fire, Burning it into oblivion
Turning it into the Dante’s inferno of my mind
As the Demonic Vultures arrive for seconds

And then I hear a bunch of warped like shrilling desperate screams
Screaming “The past is not worth going back to”
What have I let myself become?
How could I let such simplicity ruin my life?
Emotions thick with self burden
As the voices of reason resonate to silence
As this prideful spiteful ignorance
Drowns them out


II

Through the years
What a great actor I use to be
Could hide emotions like no other
Was gifted in the gift of invisibility
As every single opportunity passed on by


Some said I was strong
While others thought I was wrong
Rain, How it can pour sadness
How it can prolong sleep
As the darkness of this awakening
Becomes the darkness of the week

Perhaps to a great many of this world
I may not make any sense
Could be viewed as someone scary
As I lock myself in these emotions
Screaming inside the very box
I have lured myself to suffering into

III

Searching in the dark
Pulling it all together
Finding a handle within this enclosed paradox
Turning it fast, Turning it as fast as I can
Hearing such heavenly music playing
Popping out, Jumping out of the box
World, I hope you know who I am

Running out
All over the place
Like words being mixed around
With stanzas searching for disclosed chaos
Trying to start a new day
More magical than ever before

Life, A new lease
Not perfect at the least
But myself at the most
Searching for a brand new abode
Warmness to hold
Don’t need much in life
Greed will never get the best of me
Never shall I do it’s bidding, No

There is so much sacredness
That I hold within
Deep inside this heart
Where perhaps a few only know of
But that few grows to unlimited respect
I guess some get me, Many don’t?
Or am I just too oblivious ?
Too oblivious of what eyes are peeking into me?
Setting onto places I have never known to exist?

Somehow I feel the sky is calling out
Yelling beyond the gray clouds of agony
Yelling to me that above the gray is blue
Fly up high into the heavens
Into the golden dreams
That sparkles just for you

And….

Only one knows when I’m hurt
Only one knows when I am feeling great
And that one shall get to know more of, Me
And being as one living in peaceful prosperity
On this very day My… Epiphany arrives with a sacred welcoming
Helping me,… feel brand new

Triple teamed by the common sense of this life’s humbled resurgence
Where the bad teaches the good, The good teaches the bad
And the future has a great chance of being better than ever before

The entity was a combination of all of these fears
Fears that will surely come back
But someday they ALL will be gone
And then I can truly be at rest
As I hold love strongly forever
Living within this eternal soul

Hope exists, Hope truly exists
These visions so clear, So clear
Love, Here I come



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
10/29/11

The Inner View

Drowning in this bay of tears
Staying away from happiness
Hiding myself from others
Astute as always
As my outer
Topples my inner
Motional sickness
As these words
Become untranslatable
To the streets
That weep fall’s alienation

A step ahead of misery
A step back from sublime
Pulling myself into the center
Of irrational longevity
Rational by my own
Inner fragmented unison
Universal upon anti nihilistic apprehensions
In the gray area of subliminal
Words branded in black and white

No charades
As music plays
Inside this warp speeding mind

Octaves burrowing
Into each beat of my heart
Notes hovering around
The senses of my own tuition’s intuitional
Inclined decline

Mass dysfunctional functions
Pushes the button of apprehension
Hiding in a dead end corner, crying out for peace
Through the firepower of cowering away

In a plane view of astral projection
This imagination comes alive
Before these very lonely eyes
Giving comfort and attention
To a world I created with my own inner visions
Fighting for harmony’s calming arrival

Open arms
Risen before me
Somehow they are mine
Running to them
Falling through them
Down a rabbit hole
Full of macabre intentions

Climbing out
Covered in shame
Running away
Looking behind
I can see the skeleton’s of self regret
Chasing me, Ready to eat my soul alive

I run and run
Through waterfalls of madness
Rushing down my face

Eyes stinging from the waters escape
Blinded by fear
Confusion is back
Stronger than ever before

I hide, Hide away
Wasting another day
Locked inside my own solitary confinement

I sleep and sleep
Dreaming away the pain
Laughing off the insanity
Becoming more confident the next day
Breathing in the fresh air of today’s venture
Into the prosperity of my own ambitions within

Digging deeper into my own wellbeing
Conjuring up my own private spirituality
The self achievement of my own personal belief

An epiphany lights up
The dark ominous mass
That once hovered over me dies

For the moment
Positive killed negative
Dethroning the self made malice
for which I finally lost

Taking it all in
Openly, Poetically willingly
In strides growing larger within this life

A smile surfaces upon my face
Bittersweet beyond the end
Rewarding myself with confidence
Knowing the importance
Of the air that makes
This balanced water animate itself within

My emotions balanced
Today and hopefully many days after that

Living, Breathing within my own imagination
And if that imagination were to be rejected by another
Well at least I can say I accept it myself
And that is all that matters from here on out
Beyond the bay, Even beyond the ocean of grace

Swimming, I have learned to swim
Into the deepest regions
Of my own purified water within

Another day down
Perhaps more positive days ahead?



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
9/30/11

King Dumb of Tragedy

Usually I don't put poems like this on poetic salvation, The usually go elsewhere. But this time I put this on, There is no salvation in this. Well getting it out haha



Imbecile of honor
Painted gold from an elite upbringing
Commanding his would be fairytale princess
To honor his retched heart
In the abasing of her own wellbeing

Knight in rusty armor
Awestruck by her angelic stride
Inspired by the beauty that flows inside her
Ready, Willing and able to honor her beautiful heart
In the celebration of love’s true magical form

Imbecile of honor
With riches to the max
Resources beyond a modest man’s comprehension
Heart full of greed and vanity
Ready to pounce on what
Is already proclaimed as his

Knight of rusty armor
Not rich but gets by
Resources below a princess’s expectation

Yet, With a heart unlimited in value
He strives to do his very best
To make sure she is always happy

He would go to hell and back
To make sure she was safe and secured

Loud this imbecile of honor
Drowning out the words of an honest Knight
Yelling vulgarities to his now broken princess
Tearing her soul apart
But she stays
Because she knows no other way of life

Defeated this Knight once full of earnest honor
Stabs himself straight into his own heart
With the sword he once took pride in
The sword he created with his own blood, Sweat and tears

Safe of any self doubt
This imbecile drenched of ill intention
Destroys her very fragile soul just for fun
Moves onto his next venture
Vanquishing all true beauty
Because his ego needs to be fed

Now crowned King of the fools
The imbecile makes sure
Love is broken
In his very kingdom of dictatorship

No one shall live happily ever after
But him and him alone

The End?
Why?




Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
9/28/11

Star Struck

Frolicking stars
How they shine carefree
Gravitating beyond worry
Graced upon the gift of light
Debonair upon structured intent
Shining so magically bright
Rejoicing in the clarity of planetary nights
Beaming beauty in the honor
Of inspiring harmony within

Space, Their bearers
Birthing them to new frontiers
Building the young to be strong
As the old pass on with bravery
Never to be forgotten
By universal praises
Of love, honor and devotion

The youthful tranquility
Stars standing so mightily proud
Seeing what comes and what goes
Being energetic, Being full of captivation
Through the eyes of the many dimensions
That learn from their basking of knowledge

Such artistry they are
Masterpieces each one
Crafted for special meaning
Cells that help evolve the universe
Into a well refined eternal machine

Such beauty these frolicking stars
Divine in their own salvation
Pilots driving all inhabitants
To a unified destination
Where someday all life inhabits as one

A mystery these stars
But that is the fun
The beauty of them all

May our souls forever shine as one
As our love
Will always be the beats
To their most gifting hearts

No matter what we all believe in
The Universe is here
To help guide us all
Into the celebration of the unknown
The exploration of many answers to come



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
9/20/11

Me, Myself and I

I have myself
And that is good enough
Reaching in
Deep within
Loving myself
More than anyone proclaimed
They loved me

Trusting myself
Walls feel so cozy and nice
Nothing will ever alienate me
After all I do have I

All these problems
They are mine
So why should I share them?
They make me more stronger
More durable with time

And this very love I have
Within myself
Spreads all throughout this heart
After all I have nobody else around me
So why force the issue of denial?

But that is ok
For once I write for me
In positive form
Dedicating these words
To my enduring destiny

Every problem is trivial
Who cares if I was hurt
This is all about me
A spirit that is free

No I am not arrogant
Not overcompensating here
Confident that is me
Why wallow in misery?
What good does that do?

I will never ignore myself again
Life inside these walls
Makes me feel free

But break them down
If you really care

So there you go
Still feeling fine
Within my own confinement

I love me myself and I
Why should my emotions
Feel desolated
By the distance
Of one giving me any of their time?

But feel free reach in
So tired of reaching out
So now do you understand?

Now do you know where I am coming from?
If so, Good, let the unity begin

And if confused
Just ask what is on my mind
I never bite the hand that feeds me
Lets be real with each other
For once in one of others lives

I await your call

But no matter what
I do still have myself
And that should be good enough

I do love you
But I am sick of loving others
Way more than I have ever loved myself
Do you get what I am saying?
Good, Love yourself as I love I

Flying Through Hybrid Dreams

In sleep I fly
Way up high
Without fear
Without worry
Being strong and proud
Smiling like never before

To the top of the clouds
I roam to a new slumbering abode
A home beyond the nightmares
That once plagued this mind’s wellbeing

But will it last?
Doubts do come
But for now I shall embrace this
With every last beat of my heart

Awoken by the reality of misplaced fortune
Who am I? Someone different from the rest
Behind walls so high in contempt
But who is at fault?
I am not full of blame

Dreams cannot always be right there
They can become thorns in my side
Oxymoron’s most gifted metaphor
Disguised as mirages
Practical jokes of twisting woes
Penetrating deep into this heart’s misfortune

In wake these visions cannot fly
So much fear of heights
Feeling low
Dragging these eyes into obstructed views

Hitting rock bottom
Imprisoned by this torment within
Feeling so distant and cold
In this place where home
Becomes forlorn

Voices around
Saying I am not of their kind
Origins so distant in time
Dialogues most morbid crimes
Drowning these thoughts to hopelessness

But why should these negative thoughts win?
Cannot let them vanquish these dreams
Learning to swim through hope
So life can be better than before

Dreams and nightmares
Will come and go
Effecting these emotions
Trading off with one another
Giving lessons to this very soul
As this heart strengthens
To the pinnacle of an all aspiring epiphany

One day
I shall be stronger
All fear will be let go
As I will grab life’s hand
And fly in-between
Awakened and slumbering dreams

My journey shall never be incomplete

Patience is the achievement
Worthy to fight for better days ahead
Worthy to sleep better at night
In the acclimation
Of a life reborn to greater fulfillment
With meaning graced
Even beyond our own comprehension

I am special
You are special
We deserve a bright future
As the skies become unlimited
Open for our happiness
Through the innovation
Of our spirits within

Trust me
Everything will be ok
These words are valid
Inspired by the prophecies
Of better days ahead

And into the night we can sleep knowing
Nothing will ever hurt us again



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
9/15/11

Dreams

Dreams, Dreams
Heart quake of dreams
Shaking with anticipation
Full of temptation
These very dreams
Abasing darkness
As the light shines it’s harmony

Aftershock of emotions
In an accepting scene of unconditional love

Visions of happiness
Running through a field of roses
Drenched in the dew of a natural grace
Crimson inspiration beaming upon my face
In this place higher than the pinnacle
Of even my own expectations
Rekindling the fire of my future destination

Dreams, Dreams
How they take me away
Oh, how they fly up high
To a natural state of exhilaration
As the distance of this heart
Comes closer to a beautiful soul
Penetration of deep salvation
Making this once half leased life
Feel whole

Ah, such a grand awakening
Spirit golden of love’s partaking
Foothills of romantic rekindling
Of this fire within
Sparking romance
From this muse’s inspiration
Teaching me the knowledge of innovation

Dreams, Dreams
Profoundly sound
Musical notes ethereal bound
Octaves elope in an entwined kiss
Body surging
Of reenergized bliss

Eyes tear up
A joyful event
Heart shaped clouds of emotions
Waterfall down upon my face
Soaking in with the beating of my heart
A tidal wave epic from the start
Showering these tears with hope
Honoring me with the strength of love
Prophecies from the skies above

Awoken, Awoken
By a skeptic’s laughter
The Devil’s advocate
My own mental disaster

Dreams, Dreams
Upon woken eyes
Taking doubt away
Each lie at a time

Bringing truth in motion
Sailing the oceans of tears
Destroying fear
Slowly but surely

Dreams, Dreams
These visions survive
Through slumbering dreams
To daydream’s pride
Limitless in fantasy
A prophecy eloped
In the curing of all impossibilities

Possible by the belief
Of all greater things to come
As negativity become trivial
To its existence I shun

Dreams, Dreams
Are they really here?
Please, give me the signs
And then I will know if they are truly for real

If you believe
If I believe
We can achieve
The love that has forsaken us
Played games with us
For all of these perplexing years


Dreams, The foundation
For our hearts to be glued as one



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
9/10/11

Inside the Heart of a Poppy

Such a beautiful place her heart
It goes for miles and miles
So much room inside
For a man to fly ever so freely
Exploring realms
That defy distance itself

In fact
It’s a universe of it’s own
Full of beauty and love
Building on and on
Stronger than even she could of ever imagined

So much familiarity in this heart
A warm welcoming
Into this soul’s resurgence
Feeling the many depths of it’s life
The many beats of it’s highs and lows
Holding it ever so tightly
Never wanting to ever let go

Such honor I have
Soaring high inside this beautiful heart
Such magical bliss
The kind that make one feel young again

Molded into a star
Because she gave me new life
Deep inside this beautiful heart
Soaring to newer heights

Shining brightly
Because she
Is the one who has given me light

Inside the heart of a poppy, Unlimited
Exploring newer more beautiful sites



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
8/3/11

A Rollercoaster ride to a heart shaped Epiphany

Walking out
Upon an empty city
So bright, So surreal
Silent with such prospering tranquility
As the wind welcomes my arrival
Breathing it’s harmony
Upon this skin so ever present in utter gratification

Yet, Tears of this present reality form within
Sadness of what I cannot grasp
Venturing onto public chaos
Seeing people smile with rejoice
Hiding these emotions
Asking myself
Why do I feel so different from them?

Walking fast
Away from humankind
Looking for salvation
Through nature’s devotion
Leveling myself
From this unbalancing act of time

Searching, Searching
Going faster and faster
Sweating waterfalls of anxiety
Till I can finally walk alone

And then all of the sudden it’s just me
Walking by the trees
Across an empty street
To an empty sidewalk
Venturing on a path
Full of peace and serenity

Walking even further
Pondering ever so strongly
Hearing music playing within
This heart beating ethereal octaves
Penetrating to it’s core
As this soul searches some more

Emotional, Crying inside myself
Crying In my own personal celebration
Rejoicing in mind, body and spirit
Celebrating that I am not really alone
As a more caring presence is always here
As I feel it’s overwhelming strength
Embrace me from abroad
Oh, Such strong love it has for me

No longer worried
Lost within myself
Not a care of any local presence
As I become oblivious
To my surroundings

Dreaming beyond the miles
As away feels closer to home

This imagination it flies higher
Than it has ever flown before

And at this very moment
These tears flow further out
Rejoicing with greater joy
In the realization of being different
Means something will make a difference
And what is that difference?
Perhaps very soon I will know

And then all of a sudden
An even bigger epiphany hits
Yet, A more mysterious one
Telling me something even greater is about to happen
Yet, Should I trust these feelings?
They have lied to me before

Oh, But I cannot shake them
So something positive shall soon occur
An event slowly forming
Clueing me to a better life ahead
Blueprints for a better tomorrow

Walking in
Upon a bevy of prospecting dreams
Fighting all self doubt
In the name of a future of improvement
As love sends me it’s solace of encouragement
From far away, Yet the closest its ever been to home

Oh, I can feel the change
Feelings like never before
Never have I been this certain
For an event that has yet to come

So that has to stand for something
What is that something?
Perhaps soon I shall know

Without hope
What is there?
Just emptiness
Just emptiness

Never again will I go down that road
As these visions fly higher than ever before




Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
8/29/11

The Forest of Humanity

Send me to the forest
Of natural inhabitance
Green bevy environment
Naturally extraordinaire
Immune to the polluted thoughts
That enslave emotions

Sing nature sing
Croon the tunes that touches this heart
These Goosebumps all yours
Take me into your ethereal kingdom
Let us be as one
Basking in the beauty that shines
Inside your very kindred soul

Grasp these visions
As they peek peaks higher
Than these eyes could ever envision

And with these very tears
I shall stream a youthful persistence
Rapidly moving
This inner child
Breathing new relief
In the safety of this newfound innocence
Safe in the security
Of this environmental refuge
In the arms of a prospering glory

Pretty serenity
Rehabilitating, Medicating
In this natural high
Only to swoon down gracefully
In the presence of the trees
That sway in unified harmony

Feeling healthier than ever
Reenergized for a future of pleasure
Rebalanced by this positive energy
Basking In dreams of certainty’s endeavors

And that is my epiphany
This journey that shall soon
Be revealed as real
As this very heart shall go back to it’s roots
Growing strong and tall
Going beyond the times
That once slew before me

Nature calls
She called me
Asking why I left
In the first place
Will I stay here for good?

I promise
With everything I have
Soon we shall be as one
Trust these words
Soon we shall be as one

Just sing out loud
Just direct me to your heart
And I will take it from there
Always being here with you

Make it all possible
As I destroy all negativity
In the honor of your reality
In these dreams
That could finally become true

Who am I?
No the question should be
Who am I and who are you?
Where do we stand today?
As we venture on
Vanquishing yesterday for good

In nature’s loving rapture
May peace prosper
In our earnest abode within

When you win, I win
Everyone we influence wins

In nature’s loving rapture
May our hunger for happiness
Feed the ones who need attention the most
Guiding their intentions to humbled achievements

To all who need to hear it
I love you, We all love you
Be one within our hearts
As we travel to the true origins of mankind
The nature we lost sight of
The nature we let suffer by our own destructive ways

Wake up
And know
Dreams can be achieved with open eyes

Let us progress as humans
Keeping all hope alive

Let us climb up high
Upon the forest of humanity
So it can grow more knowledgeable
Than it has ever been grown before

Now is the future
Let us grow even more
Limits are that just limits
As we go beyond our own expectations

Peace and prosperity
The environment of new everlasting harmony

Welcome to the movement
For a new age of love
Where all is accepted
And no one is ever judged

If I can dream
If you can dream
We all can dream
Dreaming higher than
The stars that shine from up above


My forest, Your forest
Our forest united as one




Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
8/23/11

Be Leave only to come back with Hope

Aerial, Flying higher than ever before
Never wanting to come down
Because the ground is too dismal

Such beauty all around
Embellishing it
Taking it all in

Basking in a new beginning
Embracing this once troubled mind
Soothing this heart
As the stars shine on

And then I begin the cleansing
Cleansing myself of any bad thoughts
Pondering with such strong relevance
As I vanquish any bad thoughts
That may bestow upon this very soul

Love, Pure love inside
Smiling on as the moon beams its majesty
Into the kingdom of tranquility
Where nature roams freely
In the presence of a secured reality

And then with these very visions
I shape the clouds with my own imagination
Molding them into hearts, heart and more hearts
As they all float within these dreams

Slumbering peacefully for once
Not a worry in sight
Peace and prosperity possesses me
Now it’s time I fly into the light
A new day, A new life

Awoken, It was all just an elaborate dream
Struggling to become loved by this flesh
Broken by these ever changing prophesies
In this local realization
That there is nothing for me to see

But still,
Distance is not as far as I use to envision it being
Could every cherished reality
Be closer than it could ever truly be?

Can faith heal my own reflective confusion?
Even my whole life weary existence?
Perhaps its time for me to believe



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
8/11/11

Journey to a Better Beyond

Calming the storm
With these eyes adrift
Floating below sunny salvation
Taking in the ethereal rays of love
In this journey of motivational endeavors
Intertwined with oceanic bliss
As the skies navigate me to serenity

Prospering in this serene beauty
Upon these majestic visions
Hopelessly romancing
The stars to sweep my feet
And take me to the land of enchanting grace
As the moon beams its smile
Upon my own emotional state of being
In the life I always dreamt achieving

And in this epiphany
This treasured validity of personal intuition
Won by this quest for harmony
I use my eyes as a telescope
Making a wish to a certain star
Wishing for the death of impossibility
So the creation of possibility can prosper within
Becoming one with this humbled existence

Do I live inside myself?
Yes, Indeed I do
It’s never failed me as much as the outside
Always somehow coming through

Distance is a killer
When feeling out of place
Striving to stay strong
For this muse to embrace me
Straight into a paradise
That even I could of never imagined
That even I could of never fathomed existing

Eyes adrift
Ready to swim across the pond of tranquility
To the island of bliss
Where dreams exist
And hope shares it’s beauty
In the art of nature’s cleansing

No matter how bad it gets
This is the destiny I must fight for
Always and forever to a better beyond



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
8/5/11

Battling the Creature Within

My thoughts stalks itself
Forming into a madman carrying an ax
Toying with this life
Laughing on with hideous intentions
Thinking the worst thoughts ever

And in this secluded dimension I try hiding
These festering thoughts begin to close in
Boxing in my own existence
Screaming, Shrieking with chaotic tyranny

My body shuts down
Submits to this mind’s atrocities
Stuck inside this self destructive behavior
Making me give into it’s will

And then all of the sudden. Change
This mind becomes a hero
Saving me from these self maniacal thoughts
Redefining this character’s stability
In an awakening of reenergized sentiments

And from behind, these maddening thoughts
Screams “There is no hope for you”
Swinging the ax even harder
Trying to cut these dreams to pieces

I run and run away
Yet, The craziness is not far behind
Blurting out negative words of discouragement
Testing my will
Till it makes sure my mind dies

I scream for the hero
To come take this monster away
Kill it for good
Send it to it’s own mental grave

These heroic thoughts come through
As golden lights of epiphany impale the madness
Falling down to it’s death
Laying motionless in it’s spiritual seclusion

Smiling, Laughing, Rejoicing
Tears of joy pouring down this face
The brave part of myself has prevailed
Time to rebuild this life stronger than ever

Looking towards the ground
The madman disappeared
Where could he be? I ask
Thoughts begin to tremble in fear

And upon where he once laid
A note drenched in blood appears
It says, I will be back
But then I realize
The madman is weak, He is a coward
As I start to relax in bittersweet harmony

But who knows if that will last
Surely this will shall be tested again
Gathering all of the strength I have
In a new age of self confidence
That shall deem me the winner for good

Once and for all I shall win



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
8/3/11

Legal Alien

Where am I?
Who are these people?
Everything seems so transparent
Illusions tormented
Into an abstract view

Is it me who has truly disappeared?
Me who shied away?
Anxiety getting the best of me
As I wasted yet another day

If only I had wings
To fly higher than ever before
Towards better meaning
In a life anew
With dreams clearing my view

I came back
With the idea of being refreshed
But low and behold
I came back empty
Feeling more different than ever before

Dimmer town
Your glum has gotten the best of me

Just a Legal Alien
In an environment quiet and recluse



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
8/3/11

Into the Ire of Confusion's Dictatorship

Warring emotions
Embattling the heat
Sweltering, sweating
Feelings surcease
Inclined delirium
Poignant stares
In the mirror of shattered dreams

Alienated, Betrayed
Upon the fields
Of a harvested rage
Flowers drenched in promises
Burning betrayal in the deceit
Of a collective royalty

In the middle
Nervous within
Emptiness calling
Numbing the pain
To a warping screech
Of thoughts wanting out
With the haste of an enduring frustration

Who am I?
Stuck, cannot escape
Rogue weary
On a road paved to nowhere
Stealing the air I thrive to breathe

Confusion, Regression
For the cursing of deception
Trying to fight care
To a lesser evil within

A compilation
Within this heart, mind and soul
Trying to coexist with these emotions
As my nomadic nature
Searches for a brand new home

Yet….

When I try to fill in this canyon heart
Someone always sneaks in front of me
Says the right words in the wrong frame of mind
Leaving it bare and uninhabited
For those who have flown right on by

Who am I to blame?
Perhaps me myself and I
Never know me for my pain alone
But the stars that glare into these tiny blue eyes

Hope? It’s something I must embrace
For the grace of my own happiness within

I reach out
For the arms of salvation
Created poetically in my own personal Heaven

Who would ever join me?
We shall see, we shall see
Who will be at one with me?
Will it ever be known?



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
7/17/11

Foundation

Before you read this. The second stanza may get you thinking huh?? but it's coded because its sooo personal to me.


As these walls begin to shatter
I think of the times they almost caved me in
Becoming my own casket
Sealing this hope within

The taboo thoughts
Of a deathly embrace
A sharp pain of fatality to these veins
Falling from the bridges built of warring avenging mental vignettes
Pills of doom
Into the traffic of bloodbath emotions

Such history I have
With Death’s own desire
Almost seduced into the reaping hours
Mind full of agony
Soul slowly being devoured
As this heart burned of delusions

Mentality’s requiem
A life once scorned
A wall built
To block away the light of day
As the pain tormented itself
In the brink of this alienation
Inspired by those heartless deceptions
I almost let win

Rising above. Ascending
Looking down, Learning from this
Love within, Knowledge unlimited
Faith restored, Feeling brand new
Ready to achieve these personal dreams
No matter how hard it shall get

Shattered walls
Fragmenting into heart shaped ambitions
Surrounding these dreams
Into the depths of the exploration of hope

A shot of love’s adrenaline to these veins
A bridge rebuilt, Glue on my feet
Swallowing metaphoric pills of life’s ever growing bliss
Taking a ride on the golden paved highway for a better tomorrow

So proud, So very proud
Strong as ever
Fitter than ever before
Love inside this heart
As this soul adapts
To this flesh’s drastic changes
All for the better within
All for the best of me to others

This progression will never be completed
But that is what makes life so worthwhile
Traveling on inside a cocoon
For the next spirited evolution
Flying beyond the stars
Stars that shine salvation
Always and forever to beyond

This is my foundation
Always free spirited
Ready for what shall come before me

I can finally say after all these years
I am proud of the man I have become



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
7/3/11

The Quest for the Innovation of a better Tomorrow

Feel the lights
From the dancing sprite
Disconnected from spiritual chaos
Floating in the sky, Way up high
Never coming down
To the dread below
As the “living” becomes
It’s nemesis, It’s foe
Slowly taking fantasy down to a sullen level

Orbiting the earth
In multi colored harmony
Dancing distantly upon the serene breeze
Becoming a dream to uncharted eyes
Yet also a mirage to skeptical savagery
As the Elves, Fairies, Pixies, Gnomes cry for balance
Wanting everything to change to equal spirituality

And the flesh wages war on the soul
The soul just wants to be let go
Crying for the Sprite to save them
Lost inside, Feeling worthless
Feeling useless, No direction, Just too forgone
Trapped within the hell the stars have been burnt into

Both try to unify, transform
Into the astral projection of salvation’s meditation
But low and behold
The skins diabolical jealousy
Scorches a hole between them
With scorning eyes of illogical tyranny
As the ire of hypocrisy dances on

Restless spirits enslaved
By the skin’s disarray
Harbored in the fog of a gloomy daze
Losing faith within it’s reasons

And then they fight
The flesh pits them against each other
Turning them into gray clouds
Reigning hatred against society
As they soil their Mother with their chemical imbalances
Making her feel sick and rejected

Vile and ravaged
Turning the temperature up
To the brink of a clueless vindication
Vengeance shredding black upon the innocent souls
As they all feel betrayed
By the faith that has forsaken them

Mass murder to suicide
Taking the flesh down, Taking herself away
Nothing remains, Resources drained
Turned into the black hole’s residue

What have we become?
Dreams are deemed pathetic
By the chain wearing, Gag reflexes
Of their own fetish for doom
As Earth becomes the dungeon for the exobitionists
Whipping each other asking for more
In a Genesis rewound for guilty pleasures

And when the enlightened flesh slowly awakes and wants change
The oblivious ask why
Bullies them into submission
As their soul remains demised
Lost in the line of clueless endeavors
Becoming zombies
In the lusting of denial

Feel the dark
Of the dismal plight
As the polluted poltergeists form together
In the massing of discontenting abysmal fretting
Putting the razorblade shaped pieces together
In the form of an enslaved fury

One can never think for themselves
One can never have an open air of mental minding thoughts
Because the monopoly of the close minded
Will alienate the endangered souls from unifying
Conquering them as quick as the blink of a warp speeding eye

So many die
Trying to get by
Struggling to new frontiers, Dimensions
Paving their way to innovation
Only to be killed by the philosophy of ignorance itself
Well unless their flesh is desired
For the lusting of all mankind
Then it’s a slow death of character

But this very soul flies high
Staying alive
Traveling well beyond the times
Looking for a better tomorrow
Or a tomorrow after that

All in all this is my own soul
And that is something they will never take from me
I would rather die free, Than live without any dignity
And there you have it. My own personal beliefs

My soul will always live on
Venturing out into peace, love and harmony
Keeping myself humble
In this journey that shall never be complete

I believe in the impossible . Yes, I believe indeed
As the world we live in now is the tedious folklore
Twisted by mankind’s deceit

The past, The future is beyond the spirituality
Of the present’s oppression
Destroying the dreams we were meant to keep

The innovation of our souls
Shall guide our universal imagination
Straight into the muse of our own indigenous dwelling
Keeping us away from the shallowness that creeps deceit

No longer shall we let the deceivers make us weep



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
6/28/11

Beyond Normalcy

Normalcy, Such a made up word
Descends into insanity
Broken, Submissive
Awaiting it’s next lesson
Doing tricks for it’s master in command

Obedient, Please sir may I have another?
Hopeless dreamer, Dense deceiver
So many strive for it’s survival
So they can look into the mirror
Faking smiles so they can fit in
Having a mentality like most of this world

But here I am
Standing up, Standing out
Never standing at attention
Eyes locked towards innovation
Flying high inside my mind
Heart unfazed by fate’s sealed endeavors
Soaring high, Even higher than these visions before me

The nerve of me right?
Free in thought, This imagination limitless
Breathing the air of prospecting ventures
Climbing the pinnacle of my choosing
Always winning, Never losing
At peace with myself
No matter where these feelings roam

Even when I am down
I always get back up
Adverting this very tragedy
Into my positive expressions
Bringing peace and harmony
Inside these very visions
That roam into limitless endeavors

I’m weird, I’m unique
Genuine, A nature freak
Accepting myself
Paving a way
For this future before me
Feeling at ease
Never close to normalcy

This nature within
Rejoices with grace
As these wings soar
Flying beyond expectations
In an unlimited salvation
Bringing myself to a new frontier
Each day, Each night

Accept me, Reject me
It does not matter anymore
This fate is mine to shine
In the Heavens of my own personal divine

I’m gone
Way up high in the skies
Tears of joy inside these eyes
Dreaming of a beautiful visionary
To fly right next to me

Normalcy ceased to exist
The very day I opened up these eyes



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
6/24/11

The Day I Wanted...

The day I wanted
No one to ever know
Was the day I confronted
The negativity of this soul
Facing it on. Struggling to let it go
Crying out with such mental anguish
As it all took it’s toll
In this day I wanted
No one to ever know

The hatred The sadness
The madness, The woe
Clinging inside this mind
This unclean soul

Battling on and on
These self sinning words casting stones
Upon my own heart
Dyed in the grief of it’s blackened disease
In this very day
I wanted no one to ever know

Flowing with confusion
Tormented delusions
Never wanting to let go
In this very day
I wanted no one to ever know

Laughing, Crying,
Struggling, Dying, Feeling low
Swimming in tears
Under negativity’s control
In this very day
That I wanted no one to ever know

Detest me, Reject me
Just let go
Who are you to judge me?
When you yourself have days
You want no one to know

Laugh at me, Spit on me, Desecrate my name
Cold shoulders of an undying catastrophe
That has never taken the blame
Looking down on your pedestal
In disgust, In control
Never looking at yourself in the mirror
In the days
You want no one to ever know

Were you a Demon or the Devil?
I will never know
Defeated you with love
In the day
I want everyone to know

Happiness it shines
Upon the Angel’s divine
Peace and prosperity
Inner harmony and rejoice
In this epiphany I celebrate
In the day I want the whole world to know

I love you
Please, Never let go



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
6/20/11

Peer Taking in the Skies Embracing

Can you see the sky as I do?
All it’s art, It’s treasures
The heights of it’s unlimited longevity?
The beauty of it’s beholding
Cloud to cloud
Wind to wind
In the days that mourns the nights

Can you see?

Will you forgive me for who I am?
For the pain I never caused?
Loving you, Nurturing you
Accepting your flaws
Accepting your everything
Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?

Oh, Please forgive me

When these eyes peer into your skies
They are lonely, Have to no place to go
Standing still, Motionless, Feeling redundant
Losing themselves within themselves
Trying to escape this pandemonium
That plagues them into a deep astigmatism
Closing up as the sun penetrates the tragedy
Of the visions it partakes in the early days of slumber

Will you forgive me for never changing?
For embracing my own personal spirituality?
Never being amongst society’s machine
Embracing this soul more than this flesh
As I live deep inside myself

Oh, Will you forgive me?

Did I make the team?
Am I the last one to be picked?
As a consolation prize for emptiness
Filling your ego to the brim
In a cup poisoned with your own hypocrisy

Did I make the team?

World, Who are you?
I tried to coexist
But because I was different
You threw me out, Why
Because I cannot function with society’s machine?

Maybe I am wrong
Or have the right to be wrong
Why should I adapt with something
That could never adapt with me?

Society, I never belonged to you
You never belonged to me
Cast me out into the deepest voids of space
So I can find the place where I truly came from

Where do I go from here?
This soul enslaved by flesh
Searching these dreams for a peaceful way out
In the prosperity of a new spiritual beginning

But that is the future
Presently, Where do I go from here?

Confusion is my own worst enemy
Way more dreaded than any kind of fear




Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
6/17/11