The Inner View

Drowning in this bay of tears
Staying away from happiness
Hiding myself from others
Astute as always
As my outer
Topples my inner
Motional sickness
As these words
Become untranslatable
To the streets
That weep fall’s alienation

A step ahead of misery
A step back from sublime
Pulling myself into the center
Of irrational longevity
Rational by my own
Inner fragmented unison
Universal upon anti nihilistic apprehensions
In the gray area of subliminal
Words branded in black and white

No charades
As music plays
Inside this warp speeding mind

Octaves burrowing
Into each beat of my heart
Notes hovering around
The senses of my own tuition’s intuitional
Inclined decline

Mass dysfunctional functions
Pushes the button of apprehension
Hiding in a dead end corner, crying out for peace
Through the firepower of cowering away

In a plane view of astral projection
This imagination comes alive
Before these very lonely eyes
Giving comfort and attention
To a world I created with my own inner visions
Fighting for harmony’s calming arrival

Open arms
Risen before me
Somehow they are mine
Running to them
Falling through them
Down a rabbit hole
Full of macabre intentions

Climbing out
Covered in shame
Running away
Looking behind
I can see the skeleton’s of self regret
Chasing me, Ready to eat my soul alive

I run and run
Through waterfalls of madness
Rushing down my face

Eyes stinging from the waters escape
Blinded by fear
Confusion is back
Stronger than ever before

I hide, Hide away
Wasting another day
Locked inside my own solitary confinement

I sleep and sleep
Dreaming away the pain
Laughing off the insanity
Becoming more confident the next day
Breathing in the fresh air of today’s venture
Into the prosperity of my own ambitions within

Digging deeper into my own wellbeing
Conjuring up my own private spirituality
The self achievement of my own personal belief

An epiphany lights up
The dark ominous mass
That once hovered over me dies

For the moment
Positive killed negative
Dethroning the self made malice
for which I finally lost

Taking it all in
Openly, Poetically willingly
In strides growing larger within this life

A smile surfaces upon my face
Bittersweet beyond the end
Rewarding myself with confidence
Knowing the importance
Of the air that makes
This balanced water animate itself within

My emotions balanced
Today and hopefully many days after that

Living, Breathing within my own imagination
And if that imagination were to be rejected by another
Well at least I can say I accept it myself
And that is all that matters from here on out
Beyond the bay, Even beyond the ocean of grace

Swimming, I have learned to swim
Into the deepest regions
Of my own purified water within

Another day down
Perhaps more positive days ahead?



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
9/30/11