A Rollercoaster ride to a heart shaped Epiphany

Walking out
Upon an empty city
So bright, So surreal
Silent with such prospering tranquility
As the wind welcomes my arrival
Breathing it’s harmony
Upon this skin so ever present in utter gratification

Yet, Tears of this present reality form within
Sadness of what I cannot grasp
Venturing onto public chaos
Seeing people smile with rejoice
Hiding these emotions
Asking myself
Why do I feel so different from them?

Walking fast
Away from humankind
Looking for salvation
Through nature’s devotion
Leveling myself
From this unbalancing act of time

Searching, Searching
Going faster and faster
Sweating waterfalls of anxiety
Till I can finally walk alone

And then all of the sudden it’s just me
Walking by the trees
Across an empty street
To an empty sidewalk
Venturing on a path
Full of peace and serenity

Walking even further
Pondering ever so strongly
Hearing music playing within
This heart beating ethereal octaves
Penetrating to it’s core
As this soul searches some more

Emotional, Crying inside myself
Crying In my own personal celebration
Rejoicing in mind, body and spirit
Celebrating that I am not really alone
As a more caring presence is always here
As I feel it’s overwhelming strength
Embrace me from abroad
Oh, Such strong love it has for me

No longer worried
Lost within myself
Not a care of any local presence
As I become oblivious
To my surroundings

Dreaming beyond the miles
As away feels closer to home

This imagination it flies higher
Than it has ever flown before

And at this very moment
These tears flow further out
Rejoicing with greater joy
In the realization of being different
Means something will make a difference
And what is that difference?
Perhaps very soon I will know

And then all of a sudden
An even bigger epiphany hits
Yet, A more mysterious one
Telling me something even greater is about to happen
Yet, Should I trust these feelings?
They have lied to me before

Oh, But I cannot shake them
So something positive shall soon occur
An event slowly forming
Clueing me to a better life ahead
Blueprints for a better tomorrow

Walking in
Upon a bevy of prospecting dreams
Fighting all self doubt
In the name of a future of improvement
As love sends me it’s solace of encouragement
From far away, Yet the closest its ever been to home

Oh, I can feel the change
Feelings like never before
Never have I been this certain
For an event that has yet to come

So that has to stand for something
What is that something?
Perhaps soon I shall know

Without hope
What is there?
Just emptiness
Just emptiness

Never again will I go down that road
As these visions fly higher than ever before




Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
8/29/11