The Blueprints of my Life

Hey this is sort of long, Yeah just a tad yep just a tad


Chapter 1

Foreign to the world
Of close intentions
Far traveled thoughts
This mind explores different adaptations

Wanting to escape
To another realm
This flesh wanting to
Fall off the map
Of everyday occurrences

Bring the sun
Yet, Over cast the clouds a bit
So I don’t burn
Of scorn torn oblivion

Wind, breathe out happiness
Amongst warm hearted exploration
Unknowingly venture to a new world
Created for inner reflections
Building blocks of mental inceptions
As time stands for something anew

And when all becomes peaceful
This heart shall fly, Shall be released
Feeling safe, Never fearing the heights
Flying higher and higher
Beyond anything ever imagined

No more worries
No more fears
Safely roaming
In a world full of innocence
As I become young again
Inside this very heart
Where this imagination roams free

Chapter 2

Sick of being imprisoned
By my own fears
Yelling out to deafening ears
Hear these ambitions
Come forth to you
Hear me now
Before I close myself again

I’m in love
But with whom?
What is the method
Of these whole hearted feelings?
Come find out
Be my reasoning
Solve this puzzle
Of my soul in chaos

Angel fly, fly
Flutter this heart till relaxation

Where are you?
Where could you be?
It’s hard to love
When a heart becomes empty

Chapter 3

The Changeling of my spirit
Creeps into these very thoughts
Darkened visions of grotesque imagery
Rots this brain into oblivion
In the grasping of a skeletal mountaintop

Climbing up
With this harbored existence
Bones impaling this flesh
Skin shreds into past regression
This self loathed affliction
Begins to have personal morbid self premonitions

This mind loses touch
To mental destruction
This heart has nowhere to go
As this mind takes a life
Of it’s own

This puzzle explodes
Immigrates all over
Residing with no home
Restless and weary
In nomadic emptiness
As this riddle within becomes epidemic


Chapter 4

Staying still
Closing these eyes
Trying to think clearly
Entwined with haste
In the speed of blinking eyes
Touching the stars
So the clouds can cry

Feeling such a peaceful cleansing
An Angelic rose amongst this site
Dew drenched in soothing salvation
Flowing freely for a new adventure

A one way ticket
To a two way show
Dreams of solving these uncertainties
In a cradle filled with bliss
Where life finally becomes fulfilling

For once I love myself
Will you let me love you?

The end is not near
As fear becomes uncertain

Chapter 5

Opening the clouds
So the stars can shine on through
Loving myself, Loving you

Becoming a dual citizen
To the many airs of life
Scented for sweet rejoice
On a passionate fire
That ignites this spirit within

This journey begins, Forevermore
Loving life even more

Not over the top
Not close to the bottom
Just in the middle
Where my humbleness takes center stage

Such happiness in this rejoicing
As long as it becomes noticed

Hear my laughs of joy
As they are open for business

Let us celebrate
Free will with our souls
My love is ever giving, Please never let go


Chapter 6

The sun is here
Over the horizon
Just barely coming through the multi colored clouds
Of a sky high embrace

I saw your face, I saw your face
In this very dream, This epic dream
So beautiful, So serene
Eyes lifted. Opened wide
Feeling reborn. Freedom within
The puzzle back together, solved
This spirit awoken
Walking in the presence of grace
As this heart, Mind and soul
Resides abroad the sky
As these tears drop down with joy
Upon a rose bedded for pure salvation

A golden ticket to a newly cleansed existence
Loving myself in an endless venture
Shinning with the stars
Embracing love’s dual citizenship
As my earnest intentions
Floats through you


Who are you?
It’s for me to know

Never giving up
Never letting go


Chapter 7

This light ever enriching, gifting, uplifting
Beams upon my face
Over the horizon
Upon the land of enchanted grace

If this is all still a mystery
Then perhaps you can tear down these walls
And create a haven
Upon my aura uplifted
Glowing green in a field of dreams

Come inside
May you always feel at home

Please never leave me be
For I shall always be right by your side

These are the chapters
To the blueprints of my life


Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
4/27/11