This Heart has Vision

Oh, How I tried and tried and tried
To come into your heart
It was slammed, Crowded
I could not even wait in your veins

My darling I hate crowds
Mostly ones so loud and phony
Cannot wait this long for your attention
I just don’t have it in me

I know you mean well
Yet, You do come off to me
As a Woman who needs a whole lot of attention
More than I could ever give “Even at 100%”
Striking down your own character
Subliminally metaphorically lusting
Over indulged gratifications

I cared, Always did and still do
But darling, When have you come to me?
Said anything?, Did anything?
Princess I am not a neglected dog
Who howls for attention
That is just not me

Oh, How I wrote you poems, Silence
I said I would do what I can for your happiness, Silence
I waited for you to respond. Silence
And you damn near broke my heart in two

But now, Like a fool I await
To hear your very words
Are you afraid?
Then why does this world know your pain?

I am not like them
So proud I am, to be different
And never turning myself into a puppet
To the all time worst ego feeding game

You know it could of never been this way
Yet, If you actually come and talk to me
Perhaps something can still be done

Just know this
I will never be one of those phony guys
Who do their best to impress you
I will always just be myself
And that I take great pride in

Come in or go away, Your choice
I will no longer beg



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
6/22/10


To a point kind of fiction but I tweeked this I on purpose wanted to make it with the vocabulary and atmoshpere it has. Perhaps a little cluelesness with some sarcasm as well as attitude perhaps. I wanted a multi layer of the meaning of this write.