Self Reflection of Personal Wisdom to Myself

This new mission of life
Has come clamoring though
Empowering me gracefully
Upon dreams ahead

It’s a beginning
So strange I admit
Though it’s the best thing ever
No hate, No depression, No regrets

Oh, how easy it is
To go back unglued
Feel sorrow within
And brood over
Everything that never came my way

Sadness, Is a state of enigma
The worst feeling ever felt
But, When one feels accustomed to it
It’s so easy to stay down and out

Oh, Like a musical prophet once sung
“I feel the comfort in being sad”
Words I know well
In the past of my nothingness
Where promises became paranoia

Oh, How depression strains such pains
Being numb really helped
Till the on again want for feelings
Pained me ever so mentally fatigued

Dreams of death bloomed
My casket, My tomb
Grew Goosebumps
Of the visions of my demise

Demise, A word I lived by in personal reflection
But now I enjoy living on
Doing all the best
Finding my savior. My Messiah
And the love he gives

And on earth
A love of another
An earthbound Angel
Inside this heart
Where I believe again

This new lease on life
Though at times hard
I know and feel
It’s worth all of everything
I could ever give

If this not a poem
At least take it from my heart
I know how it feels to die inside
Only to live again reborn

Now here I am
No self negative thoughts
Will ever and I mean ever
Take away the greater moments ahead
Of my whole apprenticed life




Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
6/2/09