My Everlasting Gratitude

To Poppy,

Amidst the turmoil
Fatigued, Falling down
Cannot stay around
Thoughts spinning
Warping on
Into slumbering chaos
Losing all rationality

But there you are
As you have always been
Catching these emotions
Making me realize how wonderful
Dreams can truly be
As I feel reenergized
In the magic of your loving aura
Epitomizing a new frontier
Paved of ethereal longevity

Beautiful soul
With high spirits of heart filled devotion
Making this cold weary heart warm up
To an awakening
An epiphany worth traveling
Beyond any limit
Building on and on
Ever durable and strong
Healed from the shrieks that once beckoned me
From within all of life’s cruel realities

Pure solace
Mind ever relaxed
At ease
Body no longer tense
Relaxed in a state of being
Alive, So alive
Rejoicing in the fact
That someone truly believes in me

I cannot thank you enough
Never once have you forgotten about me
This very existence feeling at ease
From the embrace of your essence
In dreams feeling ever so worthwhile
Dreams that makes me such a believer
A believer of optimistic beliefs

And when I sleep
I can sleep knowing
Someone very important thinks about me
Someone very important believes in me

And then I breathe a sigh of relief
Looking past the cloudy skies
And straight up to the stars we share
In our own creative harmony

Thank you for always believing in me
This love is ever sending from here and beyond
The day, The night,
Beyond all hopes and dreams

Thank you

Written By,
James Darwin Smith II

Into the Ire of Confusion's Dictatorship

Warring emotions
Embattling the heat
Sweltering, sweating
Feelings surcease
Inclined delirium
Poignant stares
In the mirror of shattered dreams

Alienated, Betrayed
Upon the fields
Of a harvested rage
Flowers drenched in promises
Burning betrayal in the deceit
Of a collective royalty

In the middle
Nervous within
Emptiness calling
Numbing the pain
To a warping screech
Of thoughts wanting out
With the haste of an enduring frustration

Who am I?
Stuck, cannot escape
Rogue weary
On a road paved to nowhere
Stealing the air I thrive to breathe

Confusion, Regression
For the cursing of deception
Trying to fight care
To a lesser evil within

A compilation
Within this heart, mind and soul
Trying to coexist with these emotions
As my nomadic nature
Searches for a brand new home

Yet….

When I try to fill in this canyon heart
Someone always sneaks in front of me
Says the right words in the wrong frame of mind
Leaving it bare and uninhabited
For those who have flown right on by

Who am I to blame?
Perhaps me myself and I
Never know me for my pain alone
But the stars that glare into these tiny blue eyes

Hope? It’s something I must embrace
For the grace of my own happiness within

I reach out
For the arms of salvation
Created poetically in my own personal Heaven

Who would ever join me?
We shall see, we shall see
Who will be at one with me?
Will it ever be known?



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
7/17/11

Foundation

Before you read this. The second stanza may get you thinking huh?? but it's coded because its sooo personal to me.


As these walls begin to shatter
I think of the times they almost caved me in
Becoming my own casket
Sealing this hope within

The taboo thoughts
Of a deathly embrace
A sharp pain of fatality to these veins
Falling from the bridges built of warring avenging mental vignettes
Pills of doom
Into the traffic of bloodbath emotions

Such history I have
With Death’s own desire
Almost seduced into the reaping hours
Mind full of agony
Soul slowly being devoured
As this heart burned of delusions

Mentality’s requiem
A life once scorned
A wall built
To block away the light of day
As the pain tormented itself
In the brink of this alienation
Inspired by those heartless deceptions
I almost let win

Rising above. Ascending
Looking down, Learning from this
Love within, Knowledge unlimited
Faith restored, Feeling brand new
Ready to achieve these personal dreams
No matter how hard it shall get

Shattered walls
Fragmenting into heart shaped ambitions
Surrounding these dreams
Into the depths of the exploration of hope

A shot of love’s adrenaline to these veins
A bridge rebuilt, Glue on my feet
Swallowing metaphoric pills of life’s ever growing bliss
Taking a ride on the golden paved highway for a better tomorrow

So proud, So very proud
Strong as ever
Fitter than ever before
Love inside this heart
As this soul adapts
To this flesh’s drastic changes
All for the better within
All for the best of me to others

This progression will never be completed
But that is what makes life so worthwhile
Traveling on inside a cocoon
For the next spirited evolution
Flying beyond the stars
Stars that shine salvation
Always and forever to beyond

This is my foundation
Always free spirited
Ready for what shall come before me

I can finally say after all these years
I am proud of the man I have become



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
7/3/11

The Quest for the Innovation of a better Tomorrow

Feel the lights
From the dancing sprite
Disconnected from spiritual chaos
Floating in the sky, Way up high
Never coming down
To the dread below
As the “living” becomes
It’s nemesis, It’s foe
Slowly taking fantasy down to a sullen level

Orbiting the earth
In multi colored harmony
Dancing distantly upon the serene breeze
Becoming a dream to uncharted eyes
Yet also a mirage to skeptical savagery
As the Elves, Fairies, Pixies, Gnomes cry for balance
Wanting everything to change to equal spirituality

And the flesh wages war on the soul
The soul just wants to be let go
Crying for the Sprite to save them
Lost inside, Feeling worthless
Feeling useless, No direction, Just too forgone
Trapped within the hell the stars have been burnt into

Both try to unify, transform
Into the astral projection of salvation’s meditation
But low and behold
The skins diabolical jealousy
Scorches a hole between them
With scorning eyes of illogical tyranny
As the ire of hypocrisy dances on

Restless spirits enslaved
By the skin’s disarray
Harbored in the fog of a gloomy daze
Losing faith within it’s reasons

And then they fight
The flesh pits them against each other
Turning them into gray clouds
Reigning hatred against society
As they soil their Mother with their chemical imbalances
Making her feel sick and rejected

Vile and ravaged
Turning the temperature up
To the brink of a clueless vindication
Vengeance shredding black upon the innocent souls
As they all feel betrayed
By the faith that has forsaken them

Mass murder to suicide
Taking the flesh down, Taking herself away
Nothing remains, Resources drained
Turned into the black hole’s residue

What have we become?
Dreams are deemed pathetic
By the chain wearing, Gag reflexes
Of their own fetish for doom
As Earth becomes the dungeon for the exobitionists
Whipping each other asking for more
In a Genesis rewound for guilty pleasures

And when the enlightened flesh slowly awakes and wants change
The oblivious ask why
Bullies them into submission
As their soul remains demised
Lost in the line of clueless endeavors
Becoming zombies
In the lusting of denial

Feel the dark
Of the dismal plight
As the polluted poltergeists form together
In the massing of discontenting abysmal fretting
Putting the razorblade shaped pieces together
In the form of an enslaved fury

One can never think for themselves
One can never have an open air of mental minding thoughts
Because the monopoly of the close minded
Will alienate the endangered souls from unifying
Conquering them as quick as the blink of a warp speeding eye

So many die
Trying to get by
Struggling to new frontiers, Dimensions
Paving their way to innovation
Only to be killed by the philosophy of ignorance itself
Well unless their flesh is desired
For the lusting of all mankind
Then it’s a slow death of character

But this very soul flies high
Staying alive
Traveling well beyond the times
Looking for a better tomorrow
Or a tomorrow after that

All in all this is my own soul
And that is something they will never take from me
I would rather die free, Than live without any dignity
And there you have it. My own personal beliefs

My soul will always live on
Venturing out into peace, love and harmony
Keeping myself humble
In this journey that shall never be complete

I believe in the impossible . Yes, I believe indeed
As the world we live in now is the tedious folklore
Twisted by mankind’s deceit

The past, The future is beyond the spirituality
Of the present’s oppression
Destroying the dreams we were meant to keep

The innovation of our souls
Shall guide our universal imagination
Straight into the muse of our own indigenous dwelling
Keeping us away from the shallowness that creeps deceit

No longer shall we let the deceivers make us weep



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
6/28/11

Beyond Normalcy

Normalcy, Such a made up word
Descends into insanity
Broken, Submissive
Awaiting it’s next lesson
Doing tricks for it’s master in command

Obedient, Please sir may I have another?
Hopeless dreamer, Dense deceiver
So many strive for it’s survival
So they can look into the mirror
Faking smiles so they can fit in
Having a mentality like most of this world

But here I am
Standing up, Standing out
Never standing at attention
Eyes locked towards innovation
Flying high inside my mind
Heart unfazed by fate’s sealed endeavors
Soaring high, Even higher than these visions before me

The nerve of me right?
Free in thought, This imagination limitless
Breathing the air of prospecting ventures
Climbing the pinnacle of my choosing
Always winning, Never losing
At peace with myself
No matter where these feelings roam

Even when I am down
I always get back up
Adverting this very tragedy
Into my positive expressions
Bringing peace and harmony
Inside these very visions
That roam into limitless endeavors

I’m weird, I’m unique
Genuine, A nature freak
Accepting myself
Paving a way
For this future before me
Feeling at ease
Never close to normalcy

This nature within
Rejoices with grace
As these wings soar
Flying beyond expectations
In an unlimited salvation
Bringing myself to a new frontier
Each day, Each night

Accept me, Reject me
It does not matter anymore
This fate is mine to shine
In the Heavens of my own personal divine

I’m gone
Way up high in the skies
Tears of joy inside these eyes
Dreaming of a beautiful visionary
To fly right next to me

Normalcy ceased to exist
The very day I opened up these eyes



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
6/24/11

The Day I Wanted...

The day I wanted
No one to ever know
Was the day I confronted
The negativity of this soul
Facing it on. Struggling to let it go
Crying out with such mental anguish
As it all took it’s toll
In this day I wanted
No one to ever know

The hatred The sadness
The madness, The woe
Clinging inside this mind
This unclean soul

Battling on and on
These self sinning words casting stones
Upon my own heart
Dyed in the grief of it’s blackened disease
In this very day
I wanted no one to ever know

Flowing with confusion
Tormented delusions
Never wanting to let go
In this very day
I wanted no one to ever know

Laughing, Crying,
Struggling, Dying, Feeling low
Swimming in tears
Under negativity’s control
In this very day
That I wanted no one to ever know

Detest me, Reject me
Just let go
Who are you to judge me?
When you yourself have days
You want no one to know

Laugh at me, Spit on me, Desecrate my name
Cold shoulders of an undying catastrophe
That has never taken the blame
Looking down on your pedestal
In disgust, In control
Never looking at yourself in the mirror
In the days
You want no one to ever know

Were you a Demon or the Devil?
I will never know
Defeated you with love
In the day
I want everyone to know

Happiness it shines
Upon the Angel’s divine
Peace and prosperity
Inner harmony and rejoice
In this epiphany I celebrate
In the day I want the whole world to know

I love you
Please, Never let go



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
6/20/11

Peer Taking in the Skies Embracing

Can you see the sky as I do?
All it’s art, It’s treasures
The heights of it’s unlimited longevity?
The beauty of it’s beholding
Cloud to cloud
Wind to wind
In the days that mourns the nights

Can you see?

Will you forgive me for who I am?
For the pain I never caused?
Loving you, Nurturing you
Accepting your flaws
Accepting your everything
Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?

Oh, Please forgive me

When these eyes peer into your skies
They are lonely, Have to no place to go
Standing still, Motionless, Feeling redundant
Losing themselves within themselves
Trying to escape this pandemonium
That plagues them into a deep astigmatism
Closing up as the sun penetrates the tragedy
Of the visions it partakes in the early days of slumber

Will you forgive me for never changing?
For embracing my own personal spirituality?
Never being amongst society’s machine
Embracing this soul more than this flesh
As I live deep inside myself

Oh, Will you forgive me?

Did I make the team?
Am I the last one to be picked?
As a consolation prize for emptiness
Filling your ego to the brim
In a cup poisoned with your own hypocrisy

Did I make the team?

World, Who are you?
I tried to coexist
But because I was different
You threw me out, Why
Because I cannot function with society’s machine?

Maybe I am wrong
Or have the right to be wrong
Why should I adapt with something
That could never adapt with me?

Society, I never belonged to you
You never belonged to me
Cast me out into the deepest voids of space
So I can find the place where I truly came from

Where do I go from here?
This soul enslaved by flesh
Searching these dreams for a peaceful way out
In the prosperity of a new spiritual beginning

But that is the future
Presently, Where do I go from here?

Confusion is my own worst enemy
Way more dreaded than any kind of fear




Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
6/17/11