My Everlasting Gratitude

To Poppy,

Amidst the turmoil
Fatigued, Falling down
Cannot stay around
Thoughts spinning
Warping on
Into slumbering chaos
Losing all rationality

But there you are
As you have always been
Catching these emotions
Making me realize how wonderful
Dreams can truly be
As I feel reenergized
In the magic of your loving aura
Epitomizing a new frontier
Paved of ethereal longevity

Beautiful soul
With high spirits of heart filled devotion
Making this cold weary heart warm up
To an awakening
An epiphany worth traveling
Beyond any limit
Building on and on
Ever durable and strong
Healed from the shrieks that once beckoned me
From within all of life’s cruel realities

Pure solace
Mind ever relaxed
At ease
Body no longer tense
Relaxed in a state of being
Alive, So alive
Rejoicing in the fact
That someone truly believes in me

I cannot thank you enough
Never once have you forgotten about me
This very existence feeling at ease
From the embrace of your essence
In dreams feeling ever so worthwhile
Dreams that makes me such a believer
A believer of optimistic beliefs

And when I sleep
I can sleep knowing
Someone very important thinks about me
Someone very important believes in me

And then I breathe a sigh of relief
Looking past the cloudy skies
And straight up to the stars we share
In our own creative harmony

Thank you for always believing in me
This love is ever sending from here and beyond
The day, The night,
Beyond all hopes and dreams

Thank you

Written By,
James Darwin Smith II

Into the Ire of Confusion's Dictatorship

Warring emotions
Embattling the heat
Sweltering, sweating
Feelings surcease
Inclined delirium
Poignant stares
In the mirror of shattered dreams

Alienated, Betrayed
Upon the fields
Of a harvested rage
Flowers drenched in promises
Burning betrayal in the deceit
Of a collective royalty

In the middle
Nervous within
Emptiness calling
Numbing the pain
To a warping screech
Of thoughts wanting out
With the haste of an enduring frustration

Who am I?
Stuck, cannot escape
Rogue weary
On a road paved to nowhere
Stealing the air I thrive to breathe

Confusion, Regression
For the cursing of deception
Trying to fight care
To a lesser evil within

A compilation
Within this heart, mind and soul
Trying to coexist with these emotions
As my nomadic nature
Searches for a brand new home

Yet….

When I try to fill in this canyon heart
Someone always sneaks in front of me
Says the right words in the wrong frame of mind
Leaving it bare and uninhabited
For those who have flown right on by

Who am I to blame?
Perhaps me myself and I
Never know me for my pain alone
But the stars that glare into these tiny blue eyes

Hope? It’s something I must embrace
For the grace of my own happiness within

I reach out
For the arms of salvation
Created poetically in my own personal Heaven

Who would ever join me?
We shall see, we shall see
Who will be at one with me?
Will it ever be known?



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
7/17/11

Foundation

Before you read this. The second stanza may get you thinking huh?? but it's coded because its sooo personal to me.


As these walls begin to shatter
I think of the times they almost caved me in
Becoming my own casket
Sealing this hope within

The taboo thoughts
Of a deathly embrace
A sharp pain of fatality to these veins
Falling from the bridges built of warring avenging mental vignettes
Pills of doom
Into the traffic of bloodbath emotions

Such history I have
With Death’s own desire
Almost seduced into the reaping hours
Mind full of agony
Soul slowly being devoured
As this heart burned of delusions

Mentality’s requiem
A life once scorned
A wall built
To block away the light of day
As the pain tormented itself
In the brink of this alienation
Inspired by those heartless deceptions
I almost let win

Rising above. Ascending
Looking down, Learning from this
Love within, Knowledge unlimited
Faith restored, Feeling brand new
Ready to achieve these personal dreams
No matter how hard it shall get

Shattered walls
Fragmenting into heart shaped ambitions
Surrounding these dreams
Into the depths of the exploration of hope

A shot of love’s adrenaline to these veins
A bridge rebuilt, Glue on my feet
Swallowing metaphoric pills of life’s ever growing bliss
Taking a ride on the golden paved highway for a better tomorrow

So proud, So very proud
Strong as ever
Fitter than ever before
Love inside this heart
As this soul adapts
To this flesh’s drastic changes
All for the better within
All for the best of me to others

This progression will never be completed
But that is what makes life so worthwhile
Traveling on inside a cocoon
For the next spirited evolution
Flying beyond the stars
Stars that shine salvation
Always and forever to beyond

This is my foundation
Always free spirited
Ready for what shall come before me

I can finally say after all these years
I am proud of the man I have become



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
7/3/11