The Blueprints of my Life

Hey this is sort of long, Yeah just a tad yep just a tad


Chapter 1

Foreign to the world
Of close intentions
Far traveled thoughts
This mind explores different adaptations

Wanting to escape
To another realm
This flesh wanting to
Fall off the map
Of everyday occurrences

Bring the sun
Yet, Over cast the clouds a bit
So I don’t burn
Of scorn torn oblivion

Wind, breathe out happiness
Amongst warm hearted exploration
Unknowingly venture to a new world
Created for inner reflections
Building blocks of mental inceptions
As time stands for something anew

And when all becomes peaceful
This heart shall fly, Shall be released
Feeling safe, Never fearing the heights
Flying higher and higher
Beyond anything ever imagined

No more worries
No more fears
Safely roaming
In a world full of innocence
As I become young again
Inside this very heart
Where this imagination roams free

Chapter 2

Sick of being imprisoned
By my own fears
Yelling out to deafening ears
Hear these ambitions
Come forth to you
Hear me now
Before I close myself again

I’m in love
But with whom?
What is the method
Of these whole hearted feelings?
Come find out
Be my reasoning
Solve this puzzle
Of my soul in chaos

Angel fly, fly
Flutter this heart till relaxation

Where are you?
Where could you be?
It’s hard to love
When a heart becomes empty

Chapter 3

The Changeling of my spirit
Creeps into these very thoughts
Darkened visions of grotesque imagery
Rots this brain into oblivion
In the grasping of a skeletal mountaintop

Climbing up
With this harbored existence
Bones impaling this flesh
Skin shreds into past regression
This self loathed affliction
Begins to have personal morbid self premonitions

This mind loses touch
To mental destruction
This heart has nowhere to go
As this mind takes a life
Of it’s own

This puzzle explodes
Immigrates all over
Residing with no home
Restless and weary
In nomadic emptiness
As this riddle within becomes epidemic


Chapter 4

Staying still
Closing these eyes
Trying to think clearly
Entwined with haste
In the speed of blinking eyes
Touching the stars
So the clouds can cry

Feeling such a peaceful cleansing
An Angelic rose amongst this site
Dew drenched in soothing salvation
Flowing freely for a new adventure

A one way ticket
To a two way show
Dreams of solving these uncertainties
In a cradle filled with bliss
Where life finally becomes fulfilling

For once I love myself
Will you let me love you?

The end is not near
As fear becomes uncertain

Chapter 5

Opening the clouds
So the stars can shine on through
Loving myself, Loving you

Becoming a dual citizen
To the many airs of life
Scented for sweet rejoice
On a passionate fire
That ignites this spirit within

This journey begins, Forevermore
Loving life even more

Not over the top
Not close to the bottom
Just in the middle
Where my humbleness takes center stage

Such happiness in this rejoicing
As long as it becomes noticed

Hear my laughs of joy
As they are open for business

Let us celebrate
Free will with our souls
My love is ever giving, Please never let go


Chapter 6

The sun is here
Over the horizon
Just barely coming through the multi colored clouds
Of a sky high embrace

I saw your face, I saw your face
In this very dream, This epic dream
So beautiful, So serene
Eyes lifted. Opened wide
Feeling reborn. Freedom within
The puzzle back together, solved
This spirit awoken
Walking in the presence of grace
As this heart, Mind and soul
Resides abroad the sky
As these tears drop down with joy
Upon a rose bedded for pure salvation

A golden ticket to a newly cleansed existence
Loving myself in an endless venture
Shinning with the stars
Embracing love’s dual citizenship
As my earnest intentions
Floats through you


Who are you?
It’s for me to know

Never giving up
Never letting go


Chapter 7

This light ever enriching, gifting, uplifting
Beams upon my face
Over the horizon
Upon the land of enchanted grace

If this is all still a mystery
Then perhaps you can tear down these walls
And create a haven
Upon my aura uplifted
Glowing green in a field of dreams

Come inside
May you always feel at home

Please never leave me be
For I shall always be right by your side

These are the chapters
To the blueprints of my life


Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
4/27/11

The Anatomy of Oblivion's Revolution

This is fictional!

I

Morphine kiss
From the snake’s lips
Toxic vindication
Within soul swirling mist
As this spirit desecrates
The flesh of what once existed

Dirge upon erosion
Mourning apocalyptic asunder
Eulogy of the disenchanted
Stuck upon the graves
Of deceased day’s murdering

And the roses rot
In dreams forgone
Nightmares icing hearts
As the flowers freeze
Inside the oblivion
Of cold hearted withering

II

Eden’s tainted
The apple plagues our legacy
Tree of noosed woe
Of life in ruin

Lilith laughs
As she wraps
The snake around her heart
Rejoicing the sweet revenge
Of destroying love’s glory

And the beginning
Becomes the end
So fitting for humankind

Innocence oblivious
To the lies
Of being demised

Heaven weeps
Angels shaking their heads in disgust
Disgusted with Mortal Man’s errors
Wondering why such pathetic flesh
Has God’s trust

III

Halos burn
Horns come out
Deceit stabs
The light of love once rejoiced

I awaken
From this nightmare within
Wondering why these slumbering sins
Burned me into oblivion
As I eat the ashes
Of a once flourished field of roses

I never asked for this
It came to me in apparitions
Tainting this existence
Upon darkened dread
Making my eyes
Fear for the light

IV

Many diabolical souls have entered me
Controlling this torrential terror
Upon this heart of heathen dwelling
Twisting every last emotion
Into a heap of rotting decay

I hate myself
I hate everything
Misanthropic, Catastrophic
This world within my soul

Hell within
Tortured sin
Where do I begin?
God why did your most prized creations
forsaken me?

Examples I will make
Souls I will take
As I create my own morbid sphere
For those who deserve to suffer

These feelings abort
All who have scorned it’s atmosphere
Fate’s errors exists. Nevermore


Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
4/21/11

Polar Shift

Clinging on hope
On dreams drenched with bliss
Afflicted by love
Essence dying slowly

Happily ever after
Adventure so soothing
Futuristic dooming
Dismal thoughts intruding

Smiling so brightly
Sun shinning gracefully
Till the dark clouds take over
And it rains regret

So the pendulum keeps shifting
Over and over again
Wanting it one way
No matter which way it ends

Depressed, Happy, Bittersweet, Sad, Confusion
Just one of those many moods set for life’s endeavors

I don’t know
Maybe I am suppose to be unbalanced
Looking outside
Within nature’s brooding

Yet, I become quiet and peaceful
In this world I feel so strange and lost in

Hating this life
Wanting out
Loving myself
In this life worth living

Who am I?
The answer is yours for the taken

If confused
Please dial me up
And then you will understand
How my love is ever giving

I love you my Angel



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
4/16/11

Avian Epiphany

The Condor eats death
So the land can be cleansed
Of all decay
In a daring adventure
Starting anew

So I ask this
Where is the Condor of my mind?
Where are these dreams
That are suppose to come true?

Agony within
It grabs me tight
Pulls me down into
The loneliness for which I exist

Where is this prophetic embrace?
Where is this negative energy slayer?
Looking around and seeing nothing
Having no clue of what to believe anymore
As reality becomes it’s own endangered specie

Ah, But then I look up above the horizon
And they sky opens it’s heart
Letting my soul waken
To the inspiration of
A profound salvation
A Corvus cleansing!

Using all this positive energy
To muster up the strength
Of my own personal expressions
Of my soul in wake

I conjure up my own Condor
And regurgitate all bad thoughts
Sucking in the positive energy
Becoming balanced
On the back of avian art

The Raven of my heart
Flies right by my side
To all dreams fulfilled
In our own art divine

Profoundly serene
This dreamy scene
Painted by the eyes of grace
In the realm of all greater things to come



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
4/8/11



Copyrighted by,
James Darwin Smith II

Embarking Serenity Deriving from Cataclysmic Pondering

Laments of distant time
Novice representing illogical dispositions
Elicit mourning entombs self illicit reasons
Raging on emotion’s cold shoulder floundering fury
In the hopeful heating dreams uninhibitedly balanced

A symphony of random moods
Comes forth by solace force
Dialectical deathly atrocity
Burning desires so blatantly

The core of the mourning story
Trifles insomniac eyes
Perplexing adaptations
Where dreams long for direction

Trapped in a darkened corner
With qualms of fate’s redundant lunacy
Preying on prayed glory
As the Raven cries misery
With illogical worries
Of spiritual guide’s endurance

Marked with invisible scythe incisions
Only visible to the shattered mirrors of time
Scarred by Death’s phantom incantations
Hoping to cure the blindness of unforeseeable reasons
Self doubt, Personal sacrificial festering

Serotonin of rancor illusions
Suicide by crimson epiphany
Red hearted intentions supplying flight
Opening up to salvation’s immaculate rebirthing
Closing the Reaper’s scorned belittlements

Awoken in the dead of night
Astral to the golden stars shinning bright
Wishing upon better days ahead
As the stars point to the amassing
Of the dreams the cosmos created
In the grasping of a mental wellbeing

The ceremonial depths of random conclusions
Has steered me to the promise land
Where this life, This love is reborn
In the prophecy of the truest reality
Where these dreams can never lie, Lie to me again

Never so vivid, Never so straight forward
It’s coming, This spiritual uprising
The flight, The journey
To the greatest times of my life

Reborn and ready to fly
Arisen and ready to flow
Feeling brand new, Ready to go
Into the realm of green acre eyes



Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
4/6/11


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James Darwin Smith II

Cold Road Weary

Blank on a cold road weary
Full of broken dreams
Dreams that died in a crowd of disillusion
Upon the many road kills of lost hope

No one understands
And that is where it gets so lonely
Visions of a funeral home scenery
On the slab of evoked nightmares

Mental block, Mental block
Doing my best, Fighting, Fighting
On this dreary night
Calling for the Raven’s rapture
Struggling out of this restless plight

Over the sea
I dream, I dream and I dream
Tears falling down
Wishing I had wings

Just want to fly, Fly away
Go where I feel needed
Away, Away, Away
Where I can feel at home

Tears keep falling
Here lies a wreck of a man
But I must pull myself together
For the dreams that could come true

All alone
Yet, I have visions
Of something beautiful before me

It may be miles and miles and miles away
But I will get there
Someway, Somehow

I have to

Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
4/3/11